I do well with sharing information to a broad audience like this blog. I don’t have to engage directly with anyone. I can share generally without specific details. It is relieving and non-invasive. Having direct conversations can be very overwhelming. I often use my blog and journal type responses to share information that is hard to communicate directly.
I’m unsure why it is so difficult to communicate directly to even those I trust whole heartedly. A goal of mine is to share more freely when needed. I think this will help me avoid bottling up so much to the point where I’m angry at someone.
For an autistic person, starting and maintaining relationships can be challenging. We have been pushed aside so often, we don’t want to create any waves. Whether consciously or not, we try to be agreeable to get by, even at our own expense. While difficult, I hope to learn how to be more direct.