Summer is always an exciting, yet nerve wracking time of year. It means more relaxing and hang out time with friends. It also means more time to think and plan for next school year. This year has been particularly stressful because I graduated high school and am starting transition.
I have been enjoying more leisure time and groups with friends. It is always nice to have therapies as a constant. It is difficult not being able to visualize what the school year will hold. Sometimes people will try to reassure me that it will be a good year, but even if it is the best year, the unknown is still intimidating.
I like to know what’s coming because it helps me emotionally prepare. I feel best when things are expected or at least when the people are familiar. When at least one person is familiar I feel safe and know I’ll be supported. When everything and everyone is new I fear I won’t be taken care of. This fear has grown as I have gained a better understanding of my medical needs. I’m hopeful that a monthly planner will help me feel more secure as I prepare for the school year ahead in college.