I have been having seizures again. I am in good spirits about it because I realize how much I have gained. I have gone months without any. I have made many new friends that mean so much to me. I even learned how to run. While there is no way to know the exact cause of these seizures, it is likely from viral exposure. Now that the virus has passed, I am not having seizures again.
In the past I avoided going everywhere to prevent seizures and viral exposure, but that is not how I want my life to be. I want to live a full life and if I’m exposed to germs sometimes, that’s okay. It has been a long road to this realization. For a long time I was afraid to go anywhere because I was afraid to have them. Then once I accepted that I have them, I was embarrassed by them. I have now accepted them and am no longer embarrassed. They are part of who I am and I am proud of who I am, despite the trouble they have caused me. I no longer fear my epilepsy.